LEARNING TO LOVE AGAIN

After loosing my son, my husband and my new boyfriend all within a two year period, it has been hard to trust or love again. I've had a lot of ups and downs with most of them being downs. Through it all, I never lost faith in G-D.  He has been the only consistent force in my life. Wow, I can't believe it is 2018, time moves on even when you are stuck in the pass. One day you wake up and it feels like a new era and you are finally ready to move on. You fight the fear that grips you every day trying to hold you back, trying to stop your progress. You move beyond the fear and push forward, it is hard, painful but you know you must go on or die. I decided that I am not ready to die yet, I want to live. There is so much I have not done yet, so much left to see, so much yet to learn. 

I went to church on Sunday, the visitors are asked to stand but I never feel like a visitor in my Father's house no matter which house of G-D I go to. The joy that I feel, there is no comparing. Faith for me is to believe even though there is no physical or scientific proof.  Like the wind invisible, you may say, yet there is physical but I say there is physical that I have seen to solidify my belief.  I can't convince anyone they have to find faith on their own, in their own way, I just pray that they do. I always say my G-D is an awesome G-D. Growing up my mom told me you can only find the truth if you ask for knowledge of the word, read it and meditate and pray for the knowledge. 

The song says life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone, I want to keep my thrill. I want to see Paris, Greece and Italy, I want to ride a roller coaster, sky dive and see the Pyramids and not just in my dreams but up front and personal.