Starting Over

It's such a beautiful world we live in, yet it is hard starting over.  I find myself 50+ and suddenly I realize I have nothing left and nowhere to go.  I've always been proud of myself for not being a quitter.  When my kids were young and I was a single mom, I went to social service for help and after sending be back and forth for this paper or that paper, I found I was making $20.00 too much for them to be able to help me.  Lots of people would have fell apart but I just got another job, sure I missed some of my kids moments but I kept a roof over their heads, them fed and their clothes were nice, maybe not the name brand but that wasn't important anyway.  I married a good man who earned the respect of my children and we saw them grow to adults, who knew I would out live one child and my spouse.  My husband was ill for a while and at 35 he passed away, he had for years tried to get on Social Security, they found he qualified after he died.  Found out I can't draw his SS until I'm 60 years old 7 more years unless I am disabled.  I've tried freelance jobs online and some marketing made a little but not much, so here I am, where do I go from here?  I have worked since I was 15 years old and many times, more than one job at a time, lazy isn't my problem.  As a child I laughed at those funny looking lazy, slow talking black people I saw on TV, I wondered what country they were in, no one I knew was like that, later I was made aware that it was a stereotype and it was suppose to be my race.  I was angry when I found this out but as I grew so did my knowledge and I had hoped that our country would never have to endure such racism again but here it is the year 2016 and it seems we as a people have digressed, we have drifted to a dark time where we want to make America great again.  America is great because of it's diversity, each region of the United States have cultures that are the charm of those  regions.  Our country was at it's greatest when we were together as a people, and as the people it would do us good to remember: UNITED WE STAND DIVIDED WE FALL.  One stick is easy to break but a bundle is hard.